Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Harvested the watermelon

My son looked really cute holding his watermelon. We harvested one of my daughter's tomatoes too. She was pretty jazzed. It was still a little orange, but I am dying to see how it is on the inside. My giant tomato is still as green as a green tomato. Not sure if or when it will change. The odd thing is the cayenne peppers. They do not gradually turn red like the tomatoes do. They turn red immediately bit by bit so I literally have cayennes now that look like Christmas. They are half red and half green. It is weird. The jardale pumpkins are growing well. I have two large ones now. I am not sure when to harvest those. From pictures they look dark green. They are very light green now so I guess I will wait until they get really dark. My acorn squash is dying. The wombs on the female flowers are odd shaped. I would pull it out, but I prefer the bad bugs to head that way so I am leery about getting rid of it altogether.
I should hit 143 low tomorrow. I am hopeful that I will hit 142 this week. That will be the lowest on this scale ever. I ran for the first time today in about 6 weeks. I forgot how much I really enjoy running. I cannot wait to do it tomorrow, but I am most certainly going to be sore tomorrow. Yikes.
I had a very rough afternoon at work. I am still having a hard time coming down from it which is not like me. Normally, I am able to compartmentalize. I am having a tough time doing it today for whatever reason. I need a break. I am looking forward to this weekend for the break alone. No family coming to visit. I love my family, but this past weekend was not really a break. Three more days to get through....if I can just make it another three days.

Monday, June 28, 2010

The rain dance worked.

We finally resorted to a rain dance at work to make it rain. It did work. It finally rained. It looks like we might have round two coming this evening too. We will do it again tomorrow at the same time in hopes of getting the same result.
I am highly disturbed today. I just do not understand people. I read the story today about the gentleman who killed his two year old stepdaughter. He beat the crap out of her. Why? Because she would not stop crying during the Ghana/USA soccer match on Saturday. He later tried to cover up the crime by shoving a nail or bolt down her throat saying she choked on something she put in her mouth. What is wrong with people? I was thinking about this today as I was driving home. Apparently, there were several other children in the home. I then wondered what horrors they had seen or gone through during their lives with this man, and what had their own mother experienced? To me, it just reinforces that God forbid anything happen to my husband, I will not remarry or allow a man around my children. I do not understand how you beat a child or leave a child out in the cold. How do you destroy a child like that? I get that kids are frustrating. My own daughter is two going on 15, but how do you destroy a child like that. It is truly so sad.
The pumpkins are growing well, and I actually think that the loofah may flower soon. I am hopeful anyway. I like the way it grows. There are clusters of flowers with one female and many males. Now that is smart. I am not sure what to do with it once it flowers. Honestly, I am hoping to get one loofah out of it for a co-worker. Next year, I will try for more once I get a feel for how to grow it a little better.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

The cold that will not go away.

I am on day 4 I think of this cold. I feel like a total idiot for not keeping up with the Zicam in the middle of last week when I thought it might come on. My son seems to be feeling better aside from the runny nose. He has a tough time with colds in general or usually ends up with croup so the doctor says. I am not sure it is croup, but I'll spare you the details on that. I hate feeling sick. I missed my workout this am because I just did not have the strength to get up out of bed. I am hoping to feel more normal tomorrow so that I can get to the gym. I am still at 143. Hoping to stay there through tomorrow so I can start my week at that. I could handle 144--that would not be awful either.
I was looking at the jardale pumpkin this am vine. It really is beautiful. I mean just beautiful. It is very impressive. The garden is a bit unruly, but I kind of dig it like that. I just have to watch to make sure that one plant does not kill another. Looking at these plants, I have truly learned how amazing plants really are. They do all of this growing and work just to reproduce. It is a lot of work. I am constantly pruning the jardale. It loves to grow. Next year I am going to limit myself to four vines. I really want to grow more than one jardale but with a limit of 4 vines, I am not sure that will happen. Plus the jardale seems to reproduce like mad. What would I do with 30 short green pumpkins. As it is, I look to have 3-5 already and it is only June. I have another month of female flowers to allow to bloom and grow. The regular pumpkin only has the one pumpkin and some of the female flowers are not forming properly. Some are, though. I just expect that the vine is growing faster than the flowers can properly form. I used very heavy nitrogen (all organic) fertilizer to start. I suspect that I used too much. I have cut back heavily on the nitrogen and am now using an organic fertilizer with little nitrogen. I want the plants to focus more on flowering and root production. I suspect the nitrogen is why the jardale is so impressive and green. Lush is really the only way to describe it.
I harvested all bell peppers today. They were ready. Hopefully the plants will produce more flowers and then more fruit. The jalepenos are blooming. My husband will be happy in about 45 days when we have some jalepenos to eat. My martian tomato is still growing and not red. I estimate the thing weighs at least a pound now. I worry that in the next storm (well if it ever rains again) that it will fall off. My brother-in-law suggested I cut it and let it ripen in the sun in a window. Maybe, but I have never grown tomatoes before. I would really like to allow nature to take its course on the vine. Something to think about.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Hot days are here.

I am hoping and praying for rain at this point. I do not get how it gets this hot, but it does not rain. Not even a random thunderstorm or anything. I was hopeful this am when it was cloudy, but nothing. The garden is dry and I am tired of watering. The good news of the day is that I do have three jardale pumpkins growing. That could be easy to do for all I know so it might not be a big deal, but I get super jazzed about it. I love the idea of growing pumpkins that are not popular with most people. I like the way the jardales look too. They are more tomato shaped than anything else. They look pretty cool.
I am fighting a cold and it is tough to feel sexy when you are fighting a cold. I feel somewhat out of it. I still went ahead for my workout this am. I did it today with the leg weights on. I still got my 5k done in under 45 minutes. I weighed 143.1 today which is the least I have ever weighed on this scale. It feels really good. I just hope to keep from gaining weight over the weekend. If I can hold it, I might hit 142 by the middle of next week which would be good. I have about 8 weeks until my anniversary. I doubt I will be able to make 130 by then, but these days I am just hoping for 135. That means 8 more pounds which I think is doable in general and within my time table. I just have to make it to the gym each day. My portion control has been a lot better so that is helping.
Off to take some Zicam....

Friday, June 25, 2010

Mixed news again today.

Well, the jardale pumpkin flowered again today with two flowers. I hope both were fertilized. I left it to nature this time. The one I fertilized myself earlier this week looks GREAT. It definitely took. It is not on the best place on the vine and there is another female flower right next to it. I am waiting to see how it does before I cut the other female off. Despite the vine borer, the vine itself looks amazing. It is a nice shade of green and still growing like mad. The regular pumpkin has a nice sized pumpkin on it. It is about 8-9 inches long and 4 inches in diameter. I am pleased. Some of the female flowers on it, though, have bad fruit so I am cutting those off. Most of the others look good. The vine itself is still growing. I estimate that the vine is about 20 feet in lenght with a myriad of shoots. I should get a good haul out of it. There are no vine borers in it too which is a good thing. The watermelon is a nice sized. We will likely harvest it late next week. My big moon pumpkin flowered a female flower today too. I am not sure if that vine will make it, but I was pleased regardless.
I never realized how large martian tomatoes get. The largest one is HUGE. I read that they get up to 12-16 ounces. I estimate that this one is already a pound. I cannot wait to harvest it and see how it tastes. The crazy thing is that it is not even red yet. My cayennes are finally getting red--well some of them. I have a lot of people waiting for cayennes which is helpful since I have a ton. I harvested some bell peppers today too. I will likely harvest another one tomorrow. No reason to buy any at the grocery store this weekend!
I missed the gym this am. I am a little under the weather. My son's cold had taken hold. Weight is holding steady at 143. I plan to walk tomorrow am anyways since the weekend walk or run is what I really look forward to all week. It is just so peaceful and nice to be out that early in the am. The world has yet to wake up. I love every moment of it.
The longest day of the year has come and gone. It is my favorite day of the year. I hate when the days get shorter. I need to move to the equator!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Will it ever rain again.

I am tired of watering the garden. I do not want my next month's water bill. I water and water and water. I need it to rain. I had high hopes when I got home tonight. The sky had darkened, the thunder was off in the distance, it was over 100 today, and my husband is out of town (my son is terrified of thunderstorms so I swore that it would storm while my hubby is gone.) Nope. It is windy and the thunder comes and goes, BUT no rain. I even went out to water the potted plants figuring that would start the rain. Nope. Got a handful of drops and that is it.
The good news is that my jardale pumpkin looks good despite the lack of rain and vine borer. The pumpkin is definitely growing and there is a flower that I suspect will open tomorrow. Loving that. My regular pumpkin vine looks great. The pumpkin on it is growing well. My son's watermelon looks amazing too. It should be ready to eat in a week or two.
My husband comes home tonight. I am glad. I do miss him when he is gone. I am down to 143 even on Monday's so I think I will get to 140 by the end of next week if I really work hard which I plan to. I learned that rest is as important as exercise. Who would think!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Rollercoaster Ride

What a wonderful surprise I had yesterday when I went outside and saw my jardale pumpkin. It had an open female flower and one male one. I did not let nature take its course. I mated the flowers myself. I am pretty sure I was successful because the female fruit is still hard. Today, however, I am less than thrilled. I definitely have a vine borer which means it could be only a matter of time before the vine starts to wilt. I could cry. It looks like it has yet to hit my regular pumpkins, but I was seriously hoping for a nice pretty jardale pumpkin. Hopefully the vine can survive. I guess that I need to make it my goal to defeat the squash bugs this year and then tackle the vine borers next year. I read about tying a nylon stocking over the base of the vine since the borers only bore in 4-6 inches from the ground. I did that, but then it worried me that the vine might rot under the nylon so I took it off. How dumb. Next year I really need to figure something out. Hopefully, the vine has enough side roots so it will survive. I definitely think that the regular pumpkin has a pumpkin growing which is very exciting.
Still no word on Kyron Horman. What happened to him? I read something so disturbing today that it has hurt my entire being. A man was sentenced this week for killing his daughter. He actually left his two year old daughter in the cold snow in PA in 2007 because she kept taking her diaper off. He actually left her there in the cold on a playground. When I think about how scared and cold she must have been...I cannot stop crying. I wonder how no one could hear her crying. She must have. It is physically painful to think about. I myself have a two year old daugher. I know first hand how maddening a two year old girl can be, but this punishment....it disturbs me. The thought of any child being hurt or scared destroys my soul. How dare he do that to her. I wish I believed in Hell because I would like to believe that there is a special place in Hell for those people.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Watermelon is baseball size now.

It grows more and more each day. I am pretty proud of it. There are a few more fruit growing on it too. I saw an adult vine borer on my acorn squash today. You know what that means. There are eggs and/or larva somewhere. I think my fruit on the regular pumpkin definitely took. The fruit felt firmer, and I think it was bigger. I am worried about my jardale pumpkin. It is nice and large. There is a good size, pretty female flower on it. The worry? That the female flower will bloom first before any male flower does. There are a good number of male flowers on it, but nothing that looks like it is about to bloom. What do I do if the female blooms first? I really want a pretty jardale pumpkin. Just one.
I do not get men. My husband is home all afternoon and does he bother to put the kids' clothes away? Nope. Does he bother to put the new stickers on the car? Nope. I know that sitting around and reading is much more pleasurable. Of course it is, but if I were home for a half day, the clothes would have been put away (by the way I am happy to put them in the laundry room, but he HATES that since he folds the laundry most of the time,) the playroom would have been cleaned and likely the house would have been dusted. Trust me, I would prefer to read, but there are always things that need to be done. I would spend the kids' naps cleaning, but it would wake them up so rather, I nap then with them. Considering that I get up 5am most days so I can keep my body in good shape for my husband and myself, I do not think that is too much of a bad thing. Men just frustrate me.
I have been losing weight still. My strength is back, though, thankfully. I think my problems have been hormonal. I am finally having a normal period. Finally. I did not ovulate last month. Those hormones totally messed me up. Now that I am back on track hormonally, I am losing weight again and feeling better both of which are good things.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Vine Borers

I think a vine borer has gotten into the jardale pumpkin. I had trouble with them last year on my one pumpkin vine I did. Because I had a large vine, though, with lots of leader roots, the vine was ok. I think that the jardale pumpkin will be ok too because it has established plenty of roots. I just hate that something is in there. I convinced myself last year that the mosaic virus came from the squash bugs and not the vine borer. I have controlled the squash bugs so we will see if that is true this year or not. I think that the vine borer has gotten into the big moon pumpkin too. That vine will suffer more, though, since it is not nearly as big or hardy. It had a troubled start if you remember. It flowered today for the first time. It has smaller flowers which surprised me considering how big the pumpkins can get. My regular pumpkin has its first female flower bloom today. I polinated it myself. I then watched the bees help that cause too. HOPEFULLY we will end up with our first pumpkin. I will know in a few days. It plucked another female flower off of it today. It had a soft spot. That is not good for the vine. I need to look into why that happened. In any event, keep your fingers crossed that the one female flower produces fruit.
My son's watermelon plant is doing well. I think we have another watermelon growing. The first one is still too precious. It is a little larger than a golf ball now. It is interesting to watch it in the am and then again in the pm. I can actually see a difference in its size. The jardale pumpkin has yet to flower at all. I stopped fertilizing nitrogen. The vine is HUGE so clearly it has enough nitrogen. Need to do some potash today. I have a low level potash fertilizer. I need to get a bit of a higher one to help it fruit more.
Happy Father's Day to all father's. My husband is feeling a bit ill today. I hope feels better soon. How horrible to be sick on Father's Day. I am relieved he is going for a physical soon. This happens to him way too often to be normal.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Garden is kind of going crazy

I think I used a bit too much fertilizer. The plants are going nuts. The regular pumpkin just crossed the loofah (which only seems to send out one shooter.) Then the watermelon is going to start causing some issues there soon. The jardale pumpkin also has a shooter growing out that way too. I have 3 acorn squash fruit growing, a ton of cayenne peppers, about 10 bell peppers, a ton of my daughter's tomatoes, two martian tomatoes, and one adorable watermelon. The watermelon particularly is so cute. You have never seen anything as cute as a baby watermelon. It is adorable. The nice thing about sugar baby watermelons is that they grown quickly. It takes them about 30 days from fertilization. I do not have any pumpkin fruit yet, but each vine has at least one female flower. Tomorrow I plan to get some fertilizer with just phosphorus and potash. I need the plants to really concentrate on fruit. The plants look great. Some plants are already concentrating on the fruit, but it would be nice for the pumpkins to pay a little extra attention to that now too. I think by this time last year, I had a baby pumpkin already. My hubby has been a big help with the pest control which is good since we are doing primarliy organic gardening.
I have lost weight this week despite the shortened workouts. I am a bit fatigued today too which worries me when coupled with the weight loss. I am happy to lose weight, but not if it means that I am sick. My hubby thinks it is hormonal since my period is really weird too. I hope he is right. I just want to feel normal. I am worried about making it through my walk tomorrow in the am. It is Saturday so I always walk a 5k with arm weights at a 4mph pace. I do not want to miss that because it relaxes me. I keep thinking each day that my fate will change and the weight will creep back on. Maybe tomorrow will be different.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

This is a first for me.

It happened today. I totally lost steam. I was about 23-24 minutes into the first half of my workout at the gym. I was on the elliptical ski machine (whatever the heck it is called) and I had to totally push myself hard on a level that is just normal for me. I believe it was level 6 at the time. I pushed and pushed through it. By the time I got to 26 minutes which is where I switch and ski backwards (which is the easier part for me) I was hot and just overwhelmed physically. I can normally push through anything since I know that most set backs like that are mental. This was totally physical. I had to go down to level 3 for the remainder of my workout and just keep it above 6.0 mph. I normally keep it above 7.0 mph. It was terrible. After I finished out the half hour, I went to do my half hour workout and was so hot and overheated that I had to stop after 10 minutes. I finally feel somewhat normal now with the exception of the pain on the right side of my head where I got really hot. It was strange. I hate that it happened. I feel weak now that I could not finish a workout that I normally fly through with no problem. It scares me. What will happen tomorrow?
I finished my workout stretch with no break at 16 days. I missed Monday's workout and yesterday's for that matter. I have actually lost weight this week, though. I think what I have learned is that your body needs a rest now and then. I hate to lose momentum which is why I prefer to go in long stretches of working out, but clearly I need to rest once in a while. I plan to workout tomorrow and then do my regular walk in the early am on the weekend. I added arm weights to my walk. I love it. It really helps.
My garden has become a bit unruly. Too much nitrogen maybe??? The tomato plants are huge. One is producing tomatoes like crazy. The pumpkin just crossed the loofah vine. I worry that one will kill the other. Apparently, you need to put the loofah vine on something so it hangs. I got to figure out how to solve that one. The jardale grew towards the yard, of course, rather than the back of the bed so I had to prune it yesterday. It had a female flower that I cut off because it was yellowing, but now I cannot help but wonder if that is how its female flowers look in general. The cayennes have gone nuts. I will have plenty of those to share with a few hundred friends. (No exaggeration there.) My big moon pumpkin is ok. It finally sent out a lead vine and the vine looks good. It is not growing as fast as I would like, but at least it is green. I am just hoping to get one 40-50 pound pumpkin out of it. The thing I really like about the jardale is that it is constantly putting down feeder roots. Good job by that plant!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

One last thought today

I am beside myself over Kyron, the missing child in Oregon. Why? I feel like your house should be a safe haven for your kids. I feel like school, too, should be a safe haven. Your kids should be safe at school. That is just how I feel. I understand the danger of bullies, mean teachers, etc, but by and large, they should be physically safe. What happened to him? Could it happen to my children when they go to school? Until I know what happened to him, I will never feel safe leaving my kids at school. It is probably a fluke thing. I get that, but it is still hard to wrap my brain around it. Please let him be safe somewhere. Please let him be ok. The alternative is too tough for me to think about. Every now and then I think about the kid in VA who was 5 years old I believe and was tied to a tree in his underwear and left for dead by a dispicable gentleman. (This gentleman was prosecuted decades later.) The child died from exposure. I think about that and how scared that child must have been. I want to strangle the gentleman who did it myself and I am not the kid's mom. My own son is 4. I pray that no one ever hurts him. I do not know how I would deal. I pray for Kyron's family and that of Anthony Thomas in DC who is 11 and also went missing this week. I pray that both children come home and are unharmed. I need them to be ok.

Still working out each day but

I had beer last night. Well, that and a shot of vodka. I just wanted to relax and enjoy myself. I have not missed a day of workout, though. My hubby and I went to the gym together today. (My mother-in-law had the kids.) I have had a ton to eat this weekend, though, so I know the scale on Monday will not be my friend.
I also have sweatrash and a mad case of it mixed with a bacterial infection my skin. I finally went to the dermatologist on Thurs. Apparently, I got it from the baby pool in my neighborhood. Yuck. She even tested me for a staph infection. Hopefully that comes back negative. My rash is better now thanks to the medicine she prescribed. It looks a lot better. It was bad for a while. I shortened my workout on Thursday because of it. The doc said I could still workout and that the rash would just get irritated by sweat from the workout. I will walk tomorrow in the early am again, my favorite thing to do!!! My sister is coming tomorrow so I am super excited about that. I never see her any more now that we live 3 hours apart and I have small children. I miss her a lot.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Happy birthday to my brother-in-law

Today is my brother-in-law's 46 birthday. Now that is getting up there. I adore my brother-in-law. He is an amazing person and just a generally nice guy. He seems very happy in his life and with my sister. I am glad for him. He deserves a good life. I think he has found it. My sister turned 43 3 days ago. That is hard to believe. I always think of my sister as 21 so I should not find it annoying that everyone in my family still thinks of me as 12. (That was the age I was when she was 21.) I find the 12 year old plague annoying, but I guess I get it.
I wearing my bikini top today. Shocking, I know. The top looks ok. It is the bottom I have issues with so I am wearing my crop jeans. It is actually kind of nice to wear it around. I am not sure that I will do it again. My breast actually look half decent in it.
This Friday night is likely going to be another night without the kids. Kind of scary that we will have two nights like that in a 30 day period. Not sure how to handle that. My husband goes for him 12 week post vasectomy draw on Friday. That should be interesting. Hopefully, he is clear.
The jardale pumpkin is still clumped. I do not understand that plant. It is clumped more like the squash. Hmmmm...I wonder if the jardale pumpkin is more closely related to a squash plant then the regular pumpkin. (just for you true pumpkin enthusiasts, my pumpkins are not pepo so they are not true pumpkins so yes, they are squash varieties. And for those non pumpkin enthusiasts, true pepo pumpkins are actually berries!!!) My regular pumpkin is taking over which is a good sign. To my shock, my big moon pumpkin (the giant variety) is growing well now too. Whatever attacked it earlier is gone thanks to a little insecticidal soap (I hated using it, but I had to.) I am surprised to see it producing buds and generally growing well. I hope it continues. Maybe we will get a giant pumpkin after all. I am not greedy. I do not need anything HUGE. A nice 30-40 pounder would keep me happy...

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Weekend is finally here.

I do not get it. I weighed over a half a pound more today than I did yesterday. I have been working my tail off this week. I maybe ate 200 calories more yesterday than normal. The only thing I can attribute it to is the next choice stuff I took last month. I really think that is doing a number on my hormones. I do not feel like myself either. I go back and forth between feeling ok to just being irritated which is not good because both of my children are exhausted this week. I plan to nap today while they nap. My walk this am was nice. It is nice to have a down day. Tomorrow I will run.
I was looking through some websites yesterday about celebrities in swimsuits. The whole argument was if curvier is better. I know that pictures in magazines of models are truly illusions and all, but I was shocked when I saw two very famous Victoria's Secret models in swimsuits on the beach with their families. Why? They have no breasts. When you see them in a magazine or in a catalog, they look very breasty like they have the most perfect breasts that are firm, large, and nicely shaped in general. Not really so. Both were fairly small and the breasts pretty much hung there like a small sack. I was surprised and relieved, I guess. Again, just shows you what a good stylist and wardrobe person can really do. I have been thinking more about implants these days. The expense of it is what is holding me back. Well, that and the kids. How will I lift my daughter?
I had to do my least favorite task in the garden last night. Pest control. Yuck. There were two squash bugs that I had to kill. They were large. It wa so gross. I hate killing them. I will not use pesticides, though, so that is my only options. (Honestly, pesticides do not really work on squash bugs anyways.) I checked all of the leaves for eggs and could not find any. I hate that too--squashing the eggs grosses me out too. It is necessary, though. If I do not do it, I will end up with mosaic virus again which will inevitably kill my pumpkin vines. I cannot have that. So far I have had to kill 4 squash bugs total. I hope no more show up.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Thunderstorms

I love the spring and summer not only for the warmth, but for the thunderstorms. I love a thunderstorm. My son is terrified of them and ends up sleeping with us if one should happen during the night, but I will love them. When I was little, my sister would tell me that the angels were bowling and that is what the thunder was. I tell my son the same thing now, but now we name the angels. There is Rita for my hubby's grandmother. (She loved to bowl.) Paul for my mother's first child who died at birth. (He, of course, bowls with the bumpers out.) Last night the angels were enjoying themselves, no doubt. It was wonderful.
I think about thunderstorms and how my life itself has been stormy. From my sister's cancer for most of my formative youth, to my pregnancy at 16, to my disaster of a self in college. It was ugly. I told my mother years ago when she cried over what I went through during my sister's illness (she does that on occasion when we talk about it) that I am happy with who I am now and if I am, then don't I have to accept the good, the bad, and the ugly. Yes, here is a lot of ugly. A LOT, but I am who I am now due to that ugly. The bad did not make me who I am. The good is just there. It is the ugly that molds you into the person you are. Here I am at 34, I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life. I have a great job, wonderful amazing co-workers, a nice house, a sensitive, smart, handsome and intuitive son who will be a great man one day, an very intelligent, beautiful, sassy daughter, and I am absolutely and completely in love with my husband in every way possible. I have a great yard to garden in too, and I am physically able to get up and go to the gym every day! What more could a woman want? I have also somehow found the ability to live more in the here and now which is something I thought would never happen. I was focused for so long on yesterday and then what tomorrow might bring. I am tired of waiting for tomorrow. I want to enjoy life now so I do. I get up at 4:40a to go to the gym each day or get up at 5:40a to walk or run on the weekends. I work 8-9 hours a day, spend time playing with my children after work and on the weekends, and also manage to spend real quality time with my husband. Some nights we do not even turn the tv on any more. Our relationship is even better than it was when we were 20 in every way even physically. I am just thankful each and every day to have the life I have, and honestly if all else went away tomorrow, as long as I have my husband and my children, I am fulfilled. I need them. The rest of it is just icing.
I am day 7 of non-stop workout days. Tomorrow is an easy day and I am looking forward to just walking. Hopefully my weight is reflective of working out each day. Monday will tell the tale. I just want to be 145 or below on a Monday. Need to work at that this weekend then!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Let's see what I can do.

Still at 147.5 as of yesterday. I do well all week and then blow it each weekend. It is so frustrating. It is not like I don't exercise on the weekends either. It must be my food intake and I think it is more what I eat than how much. I always drop 3 pounds by Wednesday so you do the math. I must seriously eat something that makes me retain water. My thought is the tortilla chips SO I have resolved to give up tortilla chips for a month. It bums me out because to me there is nothing better than salsa and tortilla chips (except peanut butter which is my favorite.) I am off tortilla chips and sweets too. One month. We will see where this takes me. I have not missed a workout yet either so that is 5 days in row now. I thought for sure I was going to miss yesterday's, but I got Jon and the kids out for a walk, and yes it was a workout because I pushed both kids in the double stroller for almost 5K. That counts. That is tough, but it is my new addiction. I love the way my legs feel after I push 75 pounds worth of kids in a stroller.
My garden is coming along nicely. The cayenne peppers are growing. I have several baby cayennes. Then my bell peppers will be ready for picking in about 3-5 days. We might actually get to eat them this weekend. They look GREAT! I cannot wait. I have tomatoes coming in too. They are on my daughter's plant. There are about 4. Mine has yet to produce anything other than flowers. The carrots look good. Another week or so and we should be able to pull some. My regular sized pumpkin is growing so well. I am pretty proud of it, and my son's watermelon has taken off. I got so tickled to see the beginnings of flowers on the pumpkin vine. It just made me happy. My jardale is growing but is growing in a clumpy form. I don't know if they just do that or if mine is weird. The only two complaints I have is 1. Most of my vines are growing in the wrong direction. Everyone says that it is natural for them to grow towards the sun. Um, they are not growing towards the sun, thank you. 2. I found 3 squash bugs on my squash plant and some eggs. I came to the realization that since I will not use pesticides that I will have to kill the bugs myself so I did along with the eggs. Yucky. Hate doing that, but I don't want mosaic virus again. (I'll save that story for another day.)
I feel sexier these days. Having your hubby tell you that your legs look toned will do that to you... It was a nice compliment. Maybe even on the cherry pie level of good...