Why do we love those around us? I do not mean our kids or friends. I am talking more about our spouses and partners. Why do we pick those people? I understand that there is the whole idea of attractiveness, but what we find attractive definitely varies over time, and the reality is that beauty fades so what is it that makes us love someone else? Is it some kind of chemical reaction that goes on in our brain? Is it some sort of survival instinct? Sometimes I wonder....
My battle with food addiction is not going well today. The last few weeks have been better than most, but today has been bad. I blame it on my period and stress at work. I am hopeful that tomorrow will be a better day. Ok, there is some blame on a bad lunch due to the fact that I forgot that I was almost out of almond milk and let me assure you that puffed kamut and very little almond milk DO NOT go together well. Speaking of almond milk, this excluding dairy thing seems to be helping a bit with the hormones. Maybe it is just luck or just a better cycle, but so far so good. I actually ovulated this month which is a huge relief! Maybe, just maybe, my hormones are getting better. If that is the case then maybe this summer will not be so brutal. Brutal that is with the bleeding. My feelings about my body still plague me. Will I ever be satisfied with the way I look? I often wonder.
Last time I went to therapy I wanted to talk about my issues and feelings of competence at work. That did not happen. We got side tracked on some family issues. I need to talk to her about my feelings about work. I keep meaning to make an appt to go back but it never seems to happen--that or calling the dentist. I need to do that too. Baseball is taking up most of our weeks, but I am not complaining about that. I still love it. I realized that we only have 8 regular season games left and I know that I will be sad once it is over.
