and WOW! So happy that I did. It made all of the pain and suffering and the not being to move my arms easily worth it. They look amazing on me!!! One sundress can never be worn again...well, not out of the house anyways which is kind of a bummer because it looks great one. Back to the gym tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. I went this past Saturday and actually rowed. I was so proud of myself for that. I felt ok after. My chest hurts a bit now, but that will go away. I was so sore on Sunday! I bought a few new items and a new bikini. It is on back order, though, until April. I want to really get down to 130 now. I do not want to lose more than that just in case it causes sag. That is the last thing I want. I am so happy with my breasts post surgery. I do not want them to change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now as the second fix for my one-third life crisis, I am moving on to juvederm. I am going to talk to my PS about it next week. Bless my hubby. He is so understanding about my desire to get some help to look better. I am very thankful for that. It is a lot of $ for both the surgery and now the juvederm. I just want to look hot. I am partway there....seriously the surgery on my breasts took me from 6 body to an 8-9, and I work really hard at the gym so I should be at least an 8 or 9!
Thankful for halter tops these days. They make it all worth it!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Burning feeling
The progression post surgery is quite amusing. I was quite depressed one day because on breast dropped faster than the other. Then two days later they were even again. Now the left one has dropped a bit more again. Funny how it goes. It definitely increases anxiety. My one-third life crisis is truly in full effect. Now I am dying to get juvederm for sure. Might have to really beg hubby for the $ for that one after paying for my surgery.
I am looking forward to halter top weather. Will be very nice with my new chest. I am counting down the days....
I am looking forward to halter top weather. Will be very nice with my new chest. I am counting down the days....
Monday, January 24, 2011
Hormones all messed up.
I knew that my surgery would mess up my hormones. It is quite painful. I am having leg cramps despite the fact that I should not get my period for another two weeks. Very annoying. I am very happy with my surgery so far. Part of me just wants my breasts to stay like this! No changes at all!
I feel 10 years younger. Now I just need juvederm to complete the picture...
I feel 10 years younger. Now I just need juvederm to complete the picture...
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Things I miss:
1. Washing my own hair.
2. Washing my face.
3. Curling up with my hubby at the end of each day.
4. Getting an awesome buttrub from DH at the end of the day.
5. Rowing and running.
6. The feeling of leaving the gym after an awesome workout. It just made me thankful to be alive that am.
7. Laying on my side.
8. Not wearing a bra.
9. Being able to lay on my back without incredible pain shooting through my left arm.
10. Being able to take a shirt off without pain.
11. Feeling svelte.
12. Putting my hair in a ponytail.
These are little things I took for granted prior to surgery. I know that my body will eventually get back to normal but in the meantime, I have those moments where I wonder what the hell I was thinking. Do not get me wrong...I look terrific, but I do miss these things and I feel especially distant from my hubby. That is about to make me crazy. Well, that and the 24/7 bra thing.
2. Washing my face.
3. Curling up with my hubby at the end of each day.
4. Getting an awesome buttrub from DH at the end of the day.
5. Rowing and running.
6. The feeling of leaving the gym after an awesome workout. It just made me thankful to be alive that am.
7. Laying on my side.
8. Not wearing a bra.
9. Being able to lay on my back without incredible pain shooting through my left arm.
10. Being able to take a shirt off without pain.
11. Feeling svelte.
12. Putting my hair in a ponytail.
These are little things I took for granted prior to surgery. I know that my body will eventually get back to normal but in the meantime, I have those moments where I wonder what the hell I was thinking. Do not get me wrong...I look terrific, but I do miss these things and I feel especially distant from my hubby. That is about to make me crazy. Well, that and the 24/7 bra thing.
Friday, January 21, 2011
I did it.
I had surgery and now it is 9 days post op. I am loving my results. I have the breasts of a fairly well endowed 18 year old and even though I have always had decent sized breasts, I was never this perky or high. The pain is tough but I would not trade it for my before look. I am surprised that I did it honestly. I totally thought about chickening out at the last minute...yes, it did cross my mind, but I went through it. I am so pleased!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
It is almost here....
The day of my surgery is almost here. I cannot believe it. Two more work days and then the next day is surgery. I scheduled it months ago so it is just hard to believe that I have almost made it. I knew once December started that time would just fly on by. I remember when I scheduled the surgery thinking, "Can I really do this? Am I really going to spend the $. Should I really do this?" If all goes well and there are few to no complications, I truly think that this will be the best $10G we have ever spent.
I had a dream last night that I was post surgery and going to see my OB/gyn for some crazy reason. Anyways, my breasts were at first smaller than I wanted, but then all of a sudden they were bigger and exactly what I wanted. It was nice. I hope that I am larger enough, but not too larger. After it is all said and done, I think a DD is truly what I am aiming for. I can get a revision to go smaller as I get older since I will likely need a lift again at some point anyways.
I totally embarrassed myself with my boss last week. He knows about the surgery so he asked if I was nervous about next week. We ended up talking about recovery. So he says to me, "Do not do too much." I think he is talking about the surgery so I say, "Do not worry. I am not going all Dolly Parton on you." No, he was still talking about recovery. I wanted to hide in his closet. I was so embarrassed that I started sweating profusely. It was bad. One of my co-workers who has had surgery said that it is because my mind is focused only on surgery and she is right. I have to get through that to get to the recovery portion so I am very focused on surgery only for now.
I get up early Tu-Sat for workouts, but I have started getting up early on Sundays too so that I have time to myself in the am. It is so nice. I just sit here and do whatever the hell I want. No kids bothering me. Nothing to do other than exactly what I want. No kids shows on. Nothing. I really enjoy it. I hope to keep doing it long term. Just so nice and peaceful. Before I am able to workout again, I might do that a few times a week.
Yes, the workouts. That is the only thing bothering me about the surgery. I hate that I cannot work out for two weeks at a minimum and I know even then that I will have to work my more strenous exercises back in like running and rowing which sucks because I really think the combo is what is taking more weight off. I am down to 134.5. Never thought that would happen. My goal is still 130. The surgery will bloat me and even add 2-3 pounds for the implants, but my goal is not to be 130 by Memorial Day. I figure (and hope) that I will be back to full running and rowing by my birthday. If I can do and do not gain more than a few pounds (not just implant pounds) post surgery then I can get there. I never thought I would get below 140 and then never thought I would get below 135 so this has been great! I just have to stay here, though, and not gain too much weight while I wait to work out. I am in the best shape of my life and do not want to lose that at all. Telling you...rowing and running is the magic combo.
I had a dream last night that I was post surgery and going to see my OB/gyn for some crazy reason. Anyways, my breasts were at first smaller than I wanted, but then all of a sudden they were bigger and exactly what I wanted. It was nice. I hope that I am larger enough, but not too larger. After it is all said and done, I think a DD is truly what I am aiming for. I can get a revision to go smaller as I get older since I will likely need a lift again at some point anyways.
I totally embarrassed myself with my boss last week. He knows about the surgery so he asked if I was nervous about next week. We ended up talking about recovery. So he says to me, "Do not do too much." I think he is talking about the surgery so I say, "Do not worry. I am not going all Dolly Parton on you." No, he was still talking about recovery. I wanted to hide in his closet. I was so embarrassed that I started sweating profusely. It was bad. One of my co-workers who has had surgery said that it is because my mind is focused only on surgery and she is right. I have to get through that to get to the recovery portion so I am very focused on surgery only for now.
I get up early Tu-Sat for workouts, but I have started getting up early on Sundays too so that I have time to myself in the am. It is so nice. I just sit here and do whatever the hell I want. No kids bothering me. Nothing to do other than exactly what I want. No kids shows on. Nothing. I really enjoy it. I hope to keep doing it long term. Just so nice and peaceful. Before I am able to workout again, I might do that a few times a week.
Yes, the workouts. That is the only thing bothering me about the surgery. I hate that I cannot work out for two weeks at a minimum and I know even then that I will have to work my more strenous exercises back in like running and rowing which sucks because I really think the combo is what is taking more weight off. I am down to 134.5. Never thought that would happen. My goal is still 130. The surgery will bloat me and even add 2-3 pounds for the implants, but my goal is not to be 130 by Memorial Day. I figure (and hope) that I will be back to full running and rowing by my birthday. If I can do and do not gain more than a few pounds (not just implant pounds) post surgery then I can get there. I never thought I would get below 140 and then never thought I would get below 135 so this has been great! I just have to stay here, though, and not gain too much weight while I wait to work out. I am in the best shape of my life and do not want to lose that at all. Telling you...rowing and running is the magic combo.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
10 days until surgery
I am getting more and more nervous as it gets closer. I am, however, ready for the surgery to be here. I get more and more self conscious about my breasts as the days get closer. I am anxious to have the surgery and then start the recovery process. Pain. I am worried that I will be lying around post surgery with nothing to do but focus on the pain. That will be fun and enjoyable.
I hate January. It is the worst month. I hate February too but at least that month leads to March where we get a glimpse or two of spring weather. January is cold and wet and dark. Take today. It is a perfect January day. Cold, wet and no hope of doing anything outside. I get cabin fever, and I see more and more as the kids get older the toll that it takes on them to be inside of the house all of the time. They go stir crazy too. Trying to survive the winter with kids is miserable. They are much happier when they are outside playing too.
I hate January. It is the worst month. I hate February too but at least that month leads to March where we get a glimpse or two of spring weather. January is cold and wet and dark. Take today. It is a perfect January day. Cold, wet and no hope of doing anything outside. I get cabin fever, and I see more and more as the kids get older the toll that it takes on them to be inside of the house all of the time. They go stir crazy too. Trying to survive the winter with kids is miserable. They are much happier when they are outside playing too.
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